The Teachings of Sri Tirtha Lal Mahanandhar
The Self which is the Self is the Self alone
Tapescript – 1 March 1977
“You damn fool, why don’t you cook! Cook as much as you can, you bloody swine! Here is your end; you have no existence – proud for nothing. Oh you ugly santiflat! ¹ This is your end; your kingdom is off! Your power is burnt! Your game is over; your drama is off. You are no more. You bullshit! – because you have no existence. Oh ghost of imagination, from time unknown you bastard made me a fool. Your magic will have no effect – as I have realized what I am.
¹ santiflat – don’t ask me! But the meaning is fairly clear. Ed
Goodbye to you forever, because you have no existence. Never here or there, nowhere – now here I am. This is My Kingdom. This is My right. You thug, I will not be cheated by you henceforth. I have understood your trick. Where are you? Where is your magic? Where is your world? Come on! Show me your dance! O Devil, get up; come to me! Use your power – I am here with my challenge to you. Why don’t you roar? Why can’t you show me? What happened to you? What happened to your mystery?
So you have died, eh? Because you have no existence. This is my kingdom – I am the Emperor of all Emperors. Except Me there is none. No-one has got the right to say this is ‘me’ and ‘mine’ except Myself.
Therefore here I am, the One alone, the Real Master, - indestructible, imperishable, unchangeable, all-pervading, everlasting, fountain of peace. The Real Self, the King of the Kingdom of Heaven. Know this King to be the Real King; whosoever will know this, will understand I alone is real. That ‘I’ will also roar that I alone is existing and will laugh and mock at this fool’s trick. Spellbound, he will speak no more – this magic, tricky world of this non-self that has created this creation, will fly away. His tantra and mantra will have no effect on Me, because he is not existing.
I am ever-free. Know this and you will know Me – that I am the King, Supreme alone.”
Tapescript – 4 March 1977
So the thing we would like to deal with today is this self which is non-Self. So how is this non-Self existing? How has it been created? What is the cause of its coming into existence? When the Supreme alone is there, nothing else – how has this illusion been created?
So what I think about this is that people have not understood; the general people, I am speaking about – they have not understood what is this Real Self, the Supreme Self, - you know? So poor fellows, as they have been in this world, so they got the training that ‘I am this’. Mother, father and all the other relatives in the house all started saying ‘Oh, So-and-So’ – and this is the training for the baby. This is how, through the body, which is an object, the Self started looking out. This habit was developed in such a way by their parents that they lost their own real conception that ‘I am the Supreme’ – they forgot it. So instead of thinking ‘I am the Supreme’, they started thinking ‘I am this body’. That is how the baby started thinking ‘I am this body, my name is Such-and-Such’.
He who has no name started thinking ‘I am Mr. So-and-So, and I have a form and this is it’. Thus he started forgetting Himself, which is nothing but the Supreme alone. That poor fellow, because of this training, forgets what he really is and starts thinking of this body and a name. So name and form become important to him. The moment he assumes this form he starts looking towards this object, this non-Self, and this ego which has got no existence becomes stronger and more solid and separates him from the Supreme.
This is how the jiva develops and wants to look towards the objects all the time. So he perceives objects because objects are the cause of his existence, isn’t it so? Thus all the objects, which are nothing but the Supreme, he creates – because he has been created this way. He made a form which has got no form with the help of his imagination, or practice, what you say. He believes so strongly that ‘I am something’ that he can produce himself. In the same way he can produce all the objects. So he starts producing one after another, where there are no objects at all.
The Supreme alone is everywhere. It was and It is, isn’t it so? As I told you, the whole world is nothing but the Supreme alone; then how has this jiva been created? Well, with his strong imagination he has come to this existence. The moment he exists, this body is here; his name is here – so he starts thinking different things. For his game he wants everything in name and form, so he gives name and form to everything. His imagination is so strong that the moment he thinks, everything comes like that, - and that, he thinks it is true, it is real – which is really nothing, and unreal. So all these things including himself are non-Self, but with his imagination he believes everything is real, he is so strong.
So this imagination, what we say, is called Maya. So what happens, now he starts playing with this and facing pleasure and pain, death and birth, and thus everything comes that we see in this world – everything that is changing because it is not the Real thing. If it had been real, you know, there would be no change, but here is nothing; here is not real, - changing all the time - from childhood to old age, life to death, from morning to night.
Like that, there is one game which is changeable all the time going on in everything, in whatever we see, in all the objects. So all objects have been created from that strong imagination that is Maya – always changing. So creation is there, preservation is there, destruction is there – these things are taking place within the strong imagination of Maya. Such things are going on for those who have not realized the Self.
So the incarnations, they came, and the scriptures, Vedas, everything, and they declared, ‘Well my friends, these objects on which you are building your life and which you think are real – they are not. Forget it! Rise above it! Then you will know what is Real in reality’. Thus they taught us. They wanted to impress this on our mind. Just as our parents impressed this imaginary name and form on us since our childhood – similarly these incarnations said vice-versa to this, ‘Oh no, you are not this body, you are not this man! This name is not yours, forget it! What you have remembered from time unknown, forget it now!’ This is what these teachers, gurus and scriptures teach.
So this habit you have developed, thinking, imagining ‘this is you’ – you have to go vice versa to this and think ‘I am not this body, and this is not my name’. This is how you have to go. We are so strong with this habit now that it is very difficult to think about it. This is nothing but habit.
For example, the man who takes alcohol. What is it? Cirrhosis of the liver? See, it develops so strongly in him, this habit of drinking, that it damages the liver. Now, without that alcohol, he cannot stand. Even if he wants to give it up, he cannot, because he is so habituated and cannot survive without it. If he gives up drinking, he will have such a pain in his liver, you know, cholic, that he cannot survive without that bottle. You might have heard about the people with a morphine habit; if they cannot get that morphine they become unconscious. Give them some morphine, and straight away they are ok again. Likewise, we have been so ‘selfanized’, that without this self we cannot survive; we think we will die.
So we are also intoxicated so much with this self, this drug, that without it we cannot stand. The moment we give up this habit, death is there. So to remove this habit, the scriptures and the teachers have said, ‘Well, slowly. Come slowly. Gradually remove it’. Alright, - in twenty-four hours, you just sit for one second; just start with one second to develop this habit that ‘I am not self’. Sit this way; do this way. Like that you have to gradually change the course and the way you have been thinking since time unknown. Then this self will change to the other side and will go to the right point, the Supreme.
Oh, when you reach to that Supreme, when you realize that Supreme, you will see ‘Oh! Where is this self? The self is not existing at all’. So you have to develop this real habit of understanding your real Self – because the real Self is your real form. This body and mind is your imaginary form, you know. So to remove this imaginary form, this idea that ‘I am this body’ that you have been practising – in the same way you have to practise that ‘I am the Supreme’.
Both these practices are what? Both are imaginary things. For the Real Self, no need of doing any practice. But you have to practise. Why? Because you have forgotten your Real Self. You are habituated to do something, so to remove this ‘doing something’ you have to do this practice. That is why the practice is needed. Otherwise, no need of practice. So, the habit you have already created, we are applying that habit in a different way, - from imagining to the Real.
That’s all. Habit is habit, but both habits are unreal. The real is Yourself, the Supreme. You understand what I mean? So the main thing is that to come to your real Self, you have to go through this channel. Because you have come, that is why you have to go. Otherwise, in Reality, in the Real Self, there is no coming and going. You were what you were, but you have imagined that you are this body, this ego, this self. So you have to go the opposite way – that you are not this body – and this also you have to imagine.
When you reach your goal, there, nothing remains – no sort of habit, - because you are as you are. There is nothing for you to imagine,, because you are beyond that. So imagination minus imagination is the Real Self. This is how we have to go.
As long as we are looking towards the objects we are objective, and as long as we are seeing this ego, this self – this imagined self, as objectively, ‘you’ are existing. So the existence of this non-self – meaning the imaginary self – will be there and have its life as long as it is looking towards the object. So from that object you have to turn your eye towards the subject; you should be subjective. Then gradually this artificial ‘I’ which has been created by imagination will be wiped out, because in the Real Self, nothing is existing.
For example. In front of the sun, darkness cannot stand. In front of the light, darkness cannot exist. Never will you see darkness - why? When there is no light there is darkness, isn’t it so? The moment you put the light on, there is no darkness. Why is it like that? Because darkness is not real. Similarly, the more we go nearer to the Self, the Real Self – this imaginary self will be vanishing, and one day you will understand there is no such unreal self in You, - and there never was.
This is just an imaginary thing. You, this unreal self is imagination and the objects are all imagination, and your pleasure and pain, gain and loss – whatever you have here in this imagination, is nothing but imagination itself. This imagination, if you try to observe it minutely, one day you will understand, when you strictly follow your guru and the scriptures, then you will know – ‘Oh yes, whatever objects I am seeing, including myself and the whole creation – are nothing here. Never it was and never will it be.
So, I am that Supreme in which everything comes and goes because of my imagination, and I am beyond that. Everything is in Me, but I am not in them because ‘I am’, that Supreme, alone is existing. All things are imaginary and imagination is not Myself. This you will know clearly.
So in other words, you can say all the imaginary things prove that the Supreme exists. If there had been no Supreme, there would have been no imaginary things. As I told you, everything is imaginary. I alone am existing. Imaginary things are not real things, so I am totally separate, - but in Me, everything is going on. What is this going on? It is all nothing but imagination, - so if it appears there is imagination, it proves that I am existing.
So, as you move on in search of God, the real Self, one day it will so happen that this world, this non-self, everything will not be existing. So the habit is all you have to change. You were thinking that this body is everything – now you have to think, no, this body is nothing – means this whole creation is nothing – but the Supreme alone is everywhere.
So you have to completely surrender. Complete surrender. What do you have to surrender? The self, this ego, which has been created by imagination from time unknown and which is standing now in this form. That imagination has to surrender. The moment you surrender that imagination, your self including everything will be surrendered. Isn’t it so? So that is why surrender is the most essential thing. The more we surrender to the Supreme, the more this imagination or our objective view will turn into subjective. The more we are subjective, imagination will dissolve, gradually, just as ice dissolves in water.
When water reaches the freezing point, it changes into ice. The freezing point and the melting point are the same. So imagination begins at the freezing point, and thinking of the Supreme is the melting point. You have imagined in such a way that the water has frozen into ice. Now that ice has to be melted. The process is the same, - these are both processes, but one freezes and the other heats. Freezing means you will be objective, - the world is there, the self is there – you cannot realize the Truth. The water has turned into ice, even though the water is still there. Now the subjective view means to go towards your real form, the Supreme, - whatever you want you can say. So then you apply the heating process. Even though the water is always there, it is here in the form of ice, isn’t it? So it has to be melted.
We have to heat the ice so that it will turn into its real nature of water. Then it will have no form. It will come to its original formless form, meaning we will come to our original Self, which is Truth alone. This is what is going on. So extroverted and introverted, these are the two things, you know. If you want to be extroverted, you will enjoy the world; or if you want to enjoy the Self, the Real, then you have to be introverted. These are the two processes, but water is water all the time, and both times are water alone.
Once you come to your Reality, what happens, you know, whether you are extroverted or introverted – now from that point I am telling you, when you realize that ‘I am that Supreme alone’ – whether you are extroverted or introverted, water alone is there. You will see only water, you know? Whether it is ice or it is water, - water is only water, whether it has been frozen or heated, and these processes are also Myself – see, you go so detailed.
This is because, as I have told you, except Me there is nothing, when you will see. So whatever process you adopt, - both are myself. Process is Myself, the ‘frozen ice’ is Myself, the word ‘freeze’ is Myself, the heating process is also Myself, - and the water is Myself. So the whole thing is nothing but the water alone, Myself – and because of that water, everything is going on – and whatever is going on, that also is Myself.
So in fact, nothing is going on because I alone am existing. This is how they understood. This is the Truth. So for him, for such a realized person, whether he remains in a form or he gives up this form, it is one and the same. Whether he dies now or whether he survives for years, centuries together, it doesn’t make any difference – because he knows what he is.
You understand what I mean? He alone is there. This body is not – but this body, this whole body is made because of him, so except him there is nothing in this body, whether it remains or it dies. So the whole creation is nothing but himself. This he understands very clearly. So whether it is remaining or not remaining, for him it is one and the same. So creation, preservation and destruction – whatever takes place in him, you know, he is as he is – because creation is also himself and preservation is also himself and destruction is also himself. But creation, preservation and destruction – they are in the eyes of those imagined persons who have not realized Myself, the Self. Isn’t it so?
This is how it goes. He who has realized Myself, the Supreme, for him there is no creation. Never, never it was, never it will be, and never it is. He is as he is. So he is beyond everything. That is the Truth. On this he enjoys. He knows that ‘I am this’, so that type of person may remain in this world in any form – he may be a householder, he may be a monk, he may be a king, a beggar – he may have any form, you know. In the eyes of the people – they may have different opinions, but for him, whether he exists or doesn’t exist, it is one and the same. Whether he is an ordinary man, or rich or an emperor, for him it is one and the same.
Therefore there is no pleasure or pain in him, although there may seem to be, in the eyes of the people. ‘Oh, he is having pain and pleasure, he is also suffering’ – but in fact in him there is no pain and pleasure. This is how it goes. So he looks to be the same as ordinary people, but he, within himself, he is so strong – he knows what he is. You know, everything has been revealed, the veil has gone, this imagination is off – so he is clear now. So there is no trouble, or pleasure. This pain and pleasure is not in him because he is beyond that – and just for that we are here.
So my request to all of you is, understand this, realize this thing – this is the time. So if you will do right now, you can take my help and it will be very easy – because you have been with me since so many years and you know my habit and my behaviour also – so it is easy for you to understand me. Whereas, in my absence, if you have to go to someone – they will tell, I don’t say they will not, but it will be troublesome for you because you are not habituated to hear him and you don’t know his habit. So you may not be accustomed to his activities, and to understand him it may require again a few more years as it has taken you, since our first meeting. So unnecessarily, why do you have to waste your time searching elsewhere, doing this and that – so better you do it now.
Tapescript – 11 March 1977
So today we will talk about a house – the Real House. This is one apartment, say, this is a hall or a room, whatever you say, - of My house which is made out of Myself. It is a very big house – very, very big. It is so big, bigger than this house there is nothing – never it was, never it is and never it will be. This is My house made out of Myself.
In fact there are no apartments, but according to people’s imagination they have made lots and lots of apartments in this big house where people of different ideas are staying. According to their brain, they are enjoying this house.
You see what is going on in this world – at different times different things are going on. The sun and moon are playing with the time. The stars shine only at night. You see this sky by which the world is covered, - the sky is enjoying this way. In the same way this air, you see it is moving and is giving service to the people and all the creatures – this is how the air is serving. Without air, you know, it is hard to survive. Without heat, it is hard for people to stand. Without water, people cannot exist. So where to exist? Ask this thing. All the individuals are making their small, beautiful houses upon the earth. This is how the elements are serving. In the same way, people are also here to serve human beings, creatures and all.
This is My house. According to their imagination, people see that some are suffering with disease and having this idea, they want to help – with medicine. Some they see are orphaned and they want to help them. So these sorts of social, religious, economic etc. services are there – hundreds and thousands of services are there – according to their imagination. But whatever they see, it is nothing but Myself in those forms.
And how am I serving them? As a diseased one. Let’s talk about a person who is suffering from disease. The diseased person is myself and the disease is Myself. The preventer is Myself and the curative method is Myself. The whole thing is myself. Likewise, whatever you see in this creation, the game of creation, is going on within Myself, in this ‘house’, from all angles. I am; alone I am presenting and playing the game. This is how I am serving.
Now the real point to understand about my house – this big and biggest, what I said you know, biggest house – inside which these sorts of games are going on – is that this is because of ignorance. This body is there, and ignorance is dwelling inside and enjoying the different apartments, each according to their feeling. This game of ignorance has been here since time unknown and will continue for them as long as their ignorance is there.
This veil of ignorance is really a mystery – which I am. To understand this, those who really want to understand what it is, - have to dedicate their life with firm conviction, full determination and sincere devotion – through which they will develop pure meditation. The maturity of that meditation will help to bring them to nirvikalpa samadhi where they will understand, they will understand this thing.
This is the place where I am, ever unchanged, the fountain of all sources where all the games are coming, people are enjoying and it is all going on along with time. But in fact the ‘house’ is the same all through the centuries or cycles of birth, existence and death. The secret of this house will be known by them who reach this point, this way. This is the only way through which they can root out the ignorance which is not, in fact, really existing nor anything you see. This is what we say – revealing, and he will understand, ‘Oh, I alone am the game, the enjoyer of the game, and the real playmate. Except Me there is none’.
This house itself is playing – if it is playing – otherwise it is not. So many things came, stayed here and went. Where did they go? It is all within this house. And so many will come in future also, - and that will take place only in this house – not outside. There is no outside of this house – this is such a big house. Whether things are coming or not coming; whether anything is remaining or not remaining; whether changing or not changing – it takes place only in this ‘house’. And that house has nothing to do, - see the mystery of this house! So many things are going on – disasters are there, you know? Construction is going on, birth is taking place, - yet the house is not doing anything at all - although everything is going on within the house. This is the real nature of the ‘house’.
As long as this avidya, this delusion, is with us, it is impossible to get rid of this ignorance. To get rid of it we should strive hard in our meditation, with full faith, and go beyond this body and this ego-consciousness. There I am. Reach to that height where you see ‘Oh, everything that is going on, it is in Me. And these things that are going on are nothing but Myself, that ‘house’ alone'.
Such is the go of this game. This is a very interesting house. It is not I am that house alone – it is everything, every creature’s – is that house alone – provided he can understand Himself – that house. To approach that height, we should discriminate between that which is real and unreal, and thus go to the real. Moving with full patience, one day it will so happen that we will reach where we have to, to that house where all the incarnations, the realized ones, the yogis and gyanis – they reached and called us – called upon us and said, ‘Look, don’t be puzzled – you are the same as I am’.
This house is all the time announcing, ‘You are the same as what I am’, - but forget your ignorance – give up that. The moment you are free from this ignorance, you are Myself and you will understand what I am saying. Otherwise this is another mystery – ‘Although he is saying he is within all the creatures, in and out, yet we cannot understand him. He is announcing that as well as being in and out of us all, he is everywhere and all-pervading, but even then, we cannot understand’. Why? Because of this ignorance.
This ignorance has caused a lot of hindrances, a lot of trouble, pain, gain, loss – all sorts of things – and all the time, throughout our whole life and the life of all the creatures, there is suffering. See, I, that house, says ‘I am that house', and similarly all of you, all the creatures say ‘Yes, I am’, Is it not so? Just as that house claims that ‘I am’, the same ‘I’ is vibrating through all, but because of ignorance they think, ‘I am such-and-such creature, I am such-and-such’, and they cannot understand that real ‘I’ which is hidden within. This is the great game going on here.
So this ignorance, this dilemma, is the cause of birth and death. You are not the person to die. Nobody has to die. Nobody has to take birth. It is a real fact. This is the truth I am telling you. But if I speak to the general people, they will say, ‘Here is one more crazy man, standing in this world, saying that there is no more death and birth’. I say to all of you, my friends, if you will minutely observe what I say and try to understand my words, you will get their result as I have said, and one day you will also speak as I am speaking now, that there is no birth or death.
Death and birth, if it is there, that is also Myself, so to whom? To whom this light and darkness? To whom this gain and loss? To whom this earth and sky, this awakening and sleeping, this dawn and dusk? It is for the ignorant people. To whom this pleasure and pain? It is for the ignorant people. He is dreaming. My friends are dreaming. They are enjoying, they say, in this dreamland. They are suffering, they say, in this dreamland. They are playing, they say, in this dreamland. That is why there is night and day. In fact, when you will wake up, you will see there is no dream; there is no trace of dream, - you alone are existing.
Thus the go of this world, this dream, is going on – to those who are intoxicated by sleep – and that intoxication is nothing but your ignorance. So rise above this. Awake! You will see that you alone are existing and the whole thing is nothing but yourself, and there is nothing but yourself. You are that Pure Consciousness, the Supreme alone. The master of all the masters, the king of all the kings, the god among all the gods.
That is My house, and That I am. This is what we have to understand, and this is the fact. All the time be conscious of Yourself. Remain in that Consciousness alone – because you are that Consciousness alone. So whatever you see within Yourself that is going on – the whole creation is taking place in You. It is, but it has got no effect on You. It comes and goes. As the sun comes and goes, as the moon comes and goes, as the year comes and goes – you know, it is coming and going.
You can say, ‘Yesterday I have seen, I have done such-and-such a thing’ – but you cannot show. Similarly, the days are passing, the months are passing, the years are passing, you know? The centuries are passing. What happened? Where have they gone? There is no trace. What is this? If it is real, there should be something to show – but there isn’t. Thus it is coming and going. These are all illusory things. So this is nothing but a dream. In dream also you see a lot of things coming and going. You can say but you cannot show.
So this is nothing but the dream of a one who is sleeping, and this is also a world for the ignorant. The ignorant one alone is seeing the world – not the awakened one. So you are the awakened one – you are that real waking person – that awakened state is yours. You are That. Then why are you thinking about your dreamland body? Don’t cling to that dreamy body. You are afraid of dying because you have not understood what you are. You think, ‘If I give up this body, I will not be surviving’. This is what you imagine. I said ‘give up’ – not in a wrong way, you know, but in the right way, if you know how to give up this body-consciousness and this ego-consciousness, you will know, oh, you are existing.
The moment you come out of this ego-consciousness, what happens, you realize the Supreme Self which you are, the Truth alone. That house alone is Yourself. Oh, whatever is going on in this game, it is a game – and whatever game it is, it is nothing else but Myself. So I alone am there – whether these games are going on or not going on, whether they have got some importance or not for me, - I have nothing to do with it – nothing at all.
I am ever pure. For Me there is no death. Death and birth is for the body and that also only up to that time that ‘I’, this ego exists and sees that the body is existing. Not to Me, which is beyond this ego. To Me there is no death. I am immortal. I am the life of all yet completely free from all forever.
This is what is this house – or that ‘I’ which is existing in all as one ‘I’. Everybody says ‘I’, ‘I’, - everybody sees ‘I’ – but that ‘I’ is nothing but one ‘I’. So that one ‘I’, the Real – whatever the people say, whatever they speak – see, the sound comes out of the mouth and disappears in the ether. Likewise the whole thing, whatever is coming from the people, this ‘I’ that all are shouting – that ‘I’ disappears in the ether. What is this ether? It is nothing but Myself, but I am not this ether. Even if you could question this ether it will say ‘I’. You know, the master of all the masters, that Supreme alone, that Real ‘I’ – is the cause of all the ‘I’s; all things are coming from Him; all things go into Him – yet He is beyond both coming and going. This is the real nature of this house – which belongs to everybody.
Tapescript – 11 March 1977
So I have said what I am, yes? But yet you are still putting this question, ‘What am I?’ Isn’t it so? So what am I? Look at the difference between you with your thinking, and I, as I have already described, and my thinking.
Well, from this bodily point of view, we appear to be the same, but I am the biggest house – which I have understood, whereas in your case, you feel you are just a small hut. This hut is also within that biggest house, and that biggest house alone is this hut, but because of your ignorance, you are not understanding ‘What I am’. That is why you are asking, ‘What am I?’
The moment you or anybody puts this question, ‘What am I?’ it is clear that you have been intoxicated with ignorance. This layer of ignorance is in you, otherwise there is no question to ask. That is why I have said you are nothing but a small hut – a very tiny hut. Each individual, all the creatures, are symbolised by this small hut because they think that ‘This is what I am’. They believe that ‘I am this body alone, nothing else’ – which is made of flesh, bone, blood, skin etc. This is the hut. A thatched hut – anytime it can catch fire, anytime it can be damaged, and it can be destroyed. It has got no guarantee. It is but natural – a lot of people came and left – they have been destroyed physically.
So this is the construction of the hut. This is how the different structures are coming up every day, every minute, every second, you know, and passing by. Just stop and think, just now, how many people, human beings and other creatures, have been destroyed right now, at this time. If we were to collect the data, we would see that hundreds of thousands of people are going from this world at this very moment. And how many people are coming? In the same way hundreds of thousands of people are coming up. So every day, this is what is going on. It is routine work, you know.
Every fraction of a second, everything is coming and going. As we are here, before we were not, and after a certain time also we will not be here. This is how this game of life, of this hut, is moving on. As time passes, it turns from young to old, - every time it is moving towards the mouth of death. All the creatures are moving this way.
Now we have to see, in this small hut, this body, - so many things are here. The heart is here, eyes are here, brain is here – isn’t it so? The hearing power we have; smelling power we have, touching power we have, looking power we have – the blood vessels are working, the nervous system is there; the digestive system is working automatically. Like that, you know, all the systems are working, and to this we say ‘This is my body’ – but we don’t know how it is working. All these things are set up nicely in their different places, just where they have to be, isn’t it? The eyebrows are just above the eyes; the nose where it has to be, the mouth – see how nicely it has been constructed.
We are proud of this body and say ‘This is my body’, but we don’t know how it is functioning. Who has created it? We have no idea, and yet we say ‘This is mine’. Hundreds of thousands of hairs are on our bodies. How is it going on? See the mystery – yet we say ‘It is mine’. How this mystery is going on, we don’t know. Similarly in this whole creation, exactly the same mystery is going on – and it is taking place in Me.
If you want to know each and every mystery, well it is not possible, - simply not possible. My maya is very vast. With this body alone you can understand it is really vast, isn’t it so? Look at this brain-work – the brain cabin. If you just want to study this it may take hundreds and hundreds of thousands of years to understand what it is, which part is working which way and so on. Like that, this world is also full of mystery. So many things are coming and going.
So the seers and sages wanted to understand and studied – they tried their level best to find everything out, - but they came to the conclusion, well, it is of no use. If you start trying to find out all these things and want to understand every detail – it is impossible. One after another, there are so many things which it is not possible to understand completely and no-one has understood it all as yet – this mysterious game. So they said, ‘Forget it – because it is not permanent, you know’. As I told you, such houses – every fraction of a second they are coming and going – so which house do you want to understand? Well, even after understanding, in what way will you be benefited? No way. Useless.
So our rishis, the gyanis, the yogis, they said, ‘Look my friend, oh don’t try to understand this mystery – you will not be benefited. Instead of wasting your time to find out these things, it is better to try to find out yourself. The Self which is permanent, which is pure, which is real in reality, immutable – that is the only thing that you have to find out. The moment you will understand yourself, the Self, you will understand everything. You will understand not only your Self, the Truth, - you will understand what this mystery is. So instead of wasting your time for nothing in search of this illusory hypnotism, you can say in one way, you know, - you had better utilize your valuable time in seach of You, the Real'.
Now, to understand this – ‘What am I?’ You know you are not this body. I mean, you are not your head. This is your head, this is your body, - not you, the head or you, the body. So with this it is clear you are not this body. This body belongs to you, so ‘you’ are definitely separate from this body, isn’t it so? Then ‘What am I, then?’ If I am not this body – when it is clear that I am not this body – then what am I?
The moment you move this way, you will see, gradually going deeper and deeper and deeper within yourself – when you keep on putting this question – I am not this earth, I am not this water, I am not this air, I am not this sky, the ether, - I am not this mind, I am not this intellect, I am not this ego – then what? Go on putting this question to yourself – who am I? Who am I? Who am I? You know, like that. The more you go deeper with help of your practice – as you move, putting this sort of question – one day it will so happen, you will come to that Truth – that real Truth, where your question will have its end.
From there you will understand, ‘I am not a small hut, but I am the biggest house’ – about which I have told you before. I am that house and that house is nothing but Myself. And the whole world, the entire universe, the creation – is nothing but Myself. And this maya, this mystery, is nothing but myself. How is this moving? How have I played with these things? Well, it will be very clear to you – that this game is nothing, nothing at all. I alone is existing. I am that hut, inside that hut is also I, and each and every particle of that hut is Myself. All the brain cells are Myself; the blood cells are Myself; the nerve cells are Myself, - you know? Whatever cell you see in this body is Myself, and everything which is made out of these cells is Myself – you know? And being separate from these cells is also Myself because I understand that I have lost this house, I have gained this house – this gain and loss, who is understanding? I am understanding – so you know, I am totally separate from loss and gain. Gain is Myself, loss is Myself, and separate from this loss and gain – also is Myself. You will understand this thing very clearly.
So this gain and loss, this pleasure and pain – it is going on in Me, but for Me, the Real, there is nothing to do, nothing wrong. Whether something comes – whether this pain comes or this pleasure comes – it comes to this hut, not to Me. I have not been affected. I will not be affected. I am as I am. I am Truth alone. This you will know – knowing which you will be ever happy, because you are the real happiness. Knowing which, you will be the purest pure, because you are the real purity, Knowing which, there is no coming and going in you, because you are unchangeable – immutable. Such is the function of the I.
So forget this hut! Rise above this hut! As you, in this bodily form, are just a small hut, similarly this world also is just a small hut – this universe is just a small hut, and the whole of creation is nothing but a small hut – in front of Me, the Real, - because it has no existence – it is coming and going. So this entire creation is nothing but a small hut – and that too is a dreamy hut, you know, which you see in a dream. In You, no creation is going on – nothing of that sort is going on, if really I have to speak, - and even if creation is going on, if somebody sees, or is coming and going – well, I have nothing to do with that. This is totally separate than what you are.
So You alone is existing. That also, just to convince you people I am saying – you alone are existing, - well, I have not to speak. To whom will I speak? Because except Me there is none. I alone is existing. To whom should I say, well, ‘You are existing’? or ‘’You alone is existing’? To whom shall I say? But just to convince you, to make you understand, I am speaking this way. Whether I am speaking or not speaking, you know, I am what I am. You understand? As I am explaining this thing to you people, or if I keep mum – it is one and the same for Me – there is no change in Me.
Nothing is going on here – that is the Real House. Forget this idea of hut – because you are the master of all these huts, the Real House. You understand? So with this feeling that 'I am this hut’ – you are bound. To be liberated you have to get out of this bondage, and the moment you get out of this bondage, you are liberated – liberated you are, definitely. This is your feeling; this is your ignorance that is making you bound. The moment your ignorance is gone, liberated you are! You are the Real; only your feeling, your ignorance, your egoistic feeling, I mean, is making you feel you are in the clutch of maya of problems and this and that pain and pleasure, you know. You feel it, but in fact it is not so. This is how it is going on, so get out of this body consciousness. The moment you are out, you are free, you are liberated. You understand?
This is life. This is god-realization. This is the reply to your question, ‘What am I?’ In fact no-one has to give you a reply. You are the only person to put this question because of ignorance, and you are the only person to reply to yourself – because you are the Real in Reality. There is no-one to reply to you. Who will reply? Are you not the same one – because you alone are existing – then who is replying? No need of replying, because you are free. ‘Honey is sweet’ – we have to say to those who have not tasted it, and we have to explain so many things, this and that, to those who want to taste it – but once they have tasted, they can explain everything about it if they want to. Isn’t it so? This is how it is. You are That.
It may be very strange to you people – ‘Oh, what is this man saying? Incredible! He is giving a wonderful talk!’ It is not wonderful, - I am not wonderful. You are wonderful. The moment you realize - the moment you understand yourself – you will be wonderful to those who have not understood themselves. This is how it is going on. Because of this ignorance, you know, we think this is wonderful. In fact nothing is wonderful – or if anything is wonderful, it is That Supreme alone. You, the Supreme, is the only thing wonderful.