I and You
(More writings of Sri T.L. Mahanandhar)
'I and You' by TL
The following collection of statements and teachings were hand-written by Sri Tirtha Lal on some 100 pages stapled together and entitled "I and You'. There are no dates mentioned, however I would guess that these passages were written after the publication of 'Bed Crow' since they reinforce the teaching contained therein. Much of the work consists of full pages of almost poetic exhortations in capital letters of varying sizes and emphasis. I have attempted to render these in a script font that I hope conveys the spoken effect of the original writing. (Update, March 2020): I recently discovered that some of the fonts I originally chose that looked ok on a desktop computer were practically unreadable on phone or tablet. This has hopefully now been rectified)
It is worth noting, perhaps, that Sri Tirtha Lal trained and practised as a doctor during the earlier part of his life, hence the metaphors and occasionally technical words used here and there in reference to 'disease' and the responsibility of 'spiritual doctors' in relieving and curing the suffering thereof. Indeed, in the early years, 'The Doctor' was the preferred name by which we few westeners that knew him referred to him, whereas among his Nepali and Indian friends he was known as 'Dai', or 'elder brother'. Latterly of course, he claimed the title 'Bed Crow', but now I feel it appropriate to refer to him as Sri Tirtha Lal....... such is our need to find a name for the nameless!
In many ways, a lot of these writings sound something like a 'shouting from the rooftops', proclaiming again and again the inviolability of Truth or Reality and lamenting the prevalance of ignorance, especially in those who would put themselves forward to lead others, claiming a knowledge they do not possess. Nevertheless, he concludes with the metaphor of a spiritual warrior who, having fought against all forms of objectivization in an attempt to eradicate his ego, concludes that the way of love and non-violence is preferable to hate, and thereby achieves his final aim - knowing that 'He, the one single eternity - alone is this universe' and that except Him, there is in fact, no other.
Sri Vijay baba
Your day and night are never in 'Me'. Your sleeping and waking states are not 'Mine'. So your dream and conscious worlds are nowhere in 'Me'. Twilight and evening are nothing more than your concepts. I am beyond all your concepts, - ever free from bondage and liberation. Know 'Me' this way and enjoy eternity.
You think this delusive creation of yours is in 'Me', and it is true that without 'Me' nothing can exist, - but know it well that I am not within the reach of any creation. In 'Me' nothing exists, - that is why I am the ever free, inexpressible, one single eternal Truth.
Two cannot be one, and also two cannot exist without one. When there are two, there must be one in this relative creation. As long as you have such concepts of one and two, it cannot be true. Although two-in-one exists in your creation because of 'Me', even then your one and two are never in 'Me', the Real. Listen! I am beyond all your calculations, this is the Truth. Realize 'Me' this way, remaining in the midst of one and two, and be happy.
To come into action with your ego concept, and even thinking about 'Me' is a crime. Thereby, give up every thought and action about 'Me', who am beyond all, and remain empty. This extreme thoughtless state will take you beyond the sin and virtue of this world. This base of emptiness is no other than yourself, the Real. Thus realizing this true thoughtless Self, enjoy super-voidness forever.
In 'Me' nothing exists. I am empty, that is why I am above all, below all, and I am within you all. I am with you all, yet you and your dream creation are minus in 'Me' at all times. This real minus is the cause of all your calculations. Your signs of plus, minus, multiplication and division etc. are all created from 'Me', the minus. Thus minus is the only cause of your origination and dissolution. If this Minus wasn't there, the existence of the entire creation would collapse for ever; this is the highest conclusion of all your mathematics. Therefore, if you want to prove these sayings of mine mathematically, first accept emptiness. When nothing remains, then at that very moment you will realize the mystery of mysterious Minus, the Real.
Consciousness, unconsciousness, life and death, - all these sorts of concepts that you have are never in 'Me', because I am beyond all concepts from the very beginning. To realize these true sayings of Mine, rise above all your concepts and be happy forever, without concepts.
Meditator, meditation and the object of meditation, 'OM' and all the other secret holy names of gods and godesses are the products of your own dreamworld. To realize Truth, bring your dream to an end forever and enjoy this secret word of Mine permanently, without delay.
If you want to be immortal come to Me. To cross beyond mortality, give up your physical, mental, spiritual and all other activities totally. Remain inactive. To remain inactive, 'be empty'. To be empty, give up all concepts completely and remain spacious, just like the sky in which different universes are existing. Close your eyes and see inside, - empty dark space. This emptiness is you, the ultimate end of all the creatures created by 'ego', - this vast creation. Thus understanding the real form of your ego, be empty. Remain empty as this emptiness is. With full confidence and firm determination, develop this habit of voidness. You, the egoistic world, are nothing, - nothing indeed except that dark, empty space you see inside after closing your eyelids. When you develop this habit of voidness with full dedication, you will recognize you are no other than this voidness. Then travel this emptiness within yourself without travelling, until you turn into trance completely. Once you are in a position to extirpate your ego through ecstasy it means you are none other than 'Me', the Real, beyond all.
Life and death and all your activities are taking place because of 'Me' in your creation. So the ego believes that all your thoughts and concepts are 'Mine'. Listen, there is no doubt that everything is moving in this dreamworld because of 'Me' as long as the concept of creation exists in you, but be sure I have nothing to do with the imaginary creation of ego, because I am beyond that brain-teaser. Hence, rise above all concepts and your own ego. That is to say, 'Be Empty'. Then you will realize 'Me' – the “Free Man' who is beyond all illusion. I alone am the base of your empty sky in which different creations are visualized. This unfathomable super-voidness is no other than 'Myself' – the only freedom of the ever-free man.
Life and death I am not. I am beyond movement. The movement you see in creatures you say is life, and when there is no movement you say they are dead. All are dying because there is movement in your creation. Tomorrow or the next moment you too will die, because you are here today with this movement, but You, the Real, who are immortal and changeless, are beyond all movement. He is static who has no birth or death from the very beginning. He is free from delusions for good. Realize this life and deathless Truth first, and then enjoy this world of dream, remaining as you are constantly.
Your homeland is better than any other land, so don't try to migrate elsewhere. Leaving your own sweet homeland, you migrants have come into this delusive creation to stay with duality. This dream you have selected is completely troublesome and wrong. You should know that aliens are not allowed to stay here in this creation permanently. Pity, you will have to get out of here one day or another, because you are not a citizen of this land. Aliens are strictly watched by the immigration authorities, and no-one can hide. The famous 'King of Death' is the chief immigration officer who checks each and every passport and controls this whole creation. He is very strict and no-one has ever escaped his scrutiny. Hence you dignified people of 'My Land' are sincerely requested to return to your eternal home before your visa expires and you get kicked out by force from this land in great humiliation.
I am beyond sound and action, so how can your dream actions affect 'Me'? Give up all your activities and be empty completely to realize 'Me', the True Self.
Don't face affront for nothing, being attached to the objects of this dream world. Give up everything you possess and to which you are attached here. Read these words of warning that are displayed for your betterment in block letters in every nook and corner of your life-street:
BE EMPTY, REMAIN AS YOU ARE, DON'T TRY TO TAKE ANYTHING AWAY FROM HERE. THE GUILTY WILL BE PUNISHED SEVERELY AND WITHOUT MERCY, AND IF CAUGHT RED-HANDED WILL FACE THE DEATH PENALTY. ALL OF YOU WILL GO EMPTY-HANDED AS YOU CAME WITH DUE RESPECT. NO FOREIGNERS ARE ALLOWED TO TAKE AWAY ANYTHING FROM THIS PLACE.
The customs office won't let you take even the most trifle object with you from this place. If you get caught, they will lock you up in the narrowest of cells (the womb), with many tortures again and again. Until you are free from each and every motley object in this moot creation, you will not get clearance from the border guards to come to 'Me'.
Without paying any attention to this dreamland, physically or mentally, I know you can still be held at the final check point. Mind - you still have to pass the highly sensitive computer test (Samadhi)! Therefore be empty; don't have any attachment nor detachment to these delusive objects if you want to get through the customs and reach me. Realizing My truthfulness, enjoy eternity and remain happy forever.
What happened to your relations, religion and all? Who cares for the dead? Observe minutely and try to understand these sayings of Mine.
Remember - nothing is yours. Even your own body which you take care of so much will deceive you very bitterly one day. When your nearest and dearest body is of no use to you in time, what to talk about other objects that are just related to it? Be sure nothing belongs to you. Nobody is here for you. You belong to none and nobody is yours.
When nobody you are, and nothing, nothing at all belongs to you, why are you attached to the objects of this creation? Forget them all totally. Develop this habit to remain empty from now onward. You are no other than emptiness, so be void completely first and then realize 'super-voidness' - being one with the Truth without realizer.
This correct and short-cut technique will certainly prove to be of great help and comfort for the sobbing of the world. Thus, rise above all concepts and go beyond the attraction and distraction of this dreamland. He who is fit to remain empty will alone be able to come to Me, the True Self of all, no others.
TIME: T = Ticklish (easily tickled); I = Incarnation; M = Muse; E = Eternity. Time is really most precious for those who handle it properly. You are all inside the nut-house of time - that is why you are a 'ticklish incarnation' that 'muses on eternity'. Hence you are advised to use time properly. Surpass time! Don't remain in the heavy grasp of waspish ego that moves with the horror hands of time! Remember - True Self is you - the Real beyond time and space. Search within, removing the seeker - that is to say, "BE EMPTY" - remain empty as that emptiness is. No need to go out to the objects to realize Self. Don't misuse your most valuable time that is fleeting away with each second, tick, tick, ticking away. Once gone is gone. Gone with the wind, gone forever. Before the beating of your heart stops and you are taken to the unknown dreadful black hole of death - realize the all-pervading truth and enjoy sedately forever in time.
All-pervading Truth is you the Real and no other than Myself, the one single eternity. All are in Me, yet I am beyond all. That is the reason why your objective search has failed to find Me out so far. I am there within each step of your search, but even then this nifty, niggardly ego fails to get hold of Me - the Fail-Safe. You all move inside your own idolum (L.'image'), that is why your concepts have developed so much into objective idols, misleading you and introducing so many different religions and sects - all in the name of Truth.
'I am the seeker and I have to search out the Truth' - such concepts of ego are the root cause of your duality and unity, pleasure and pain, life and death etc. Hence, rise above your ego and its concepts which are never in Me at any time in any condition. develop this faculty of being empty, and then realize the facula* that is no other than Myself. Thus, my fan, enjoy this fantastic freedom of Mine, and remain ever-free.
* facula /"fakjUl@/
n. (pl. faculae /-li;/) Astronomy a bright region on the surface of the sun, linked to the subsequent appearance of sunspots.
– DERIVATIVES facular adj.
– ORIGIN C18: from L., dimin. of fax, fac- ‘torch’.
How can you dare to say 'I am awakened, I am a realized soul, I am an incarnation or I am God etc.'? To whom are you telling, "I have realized Truth and that I am beyond this dreamworld and the sleep that produced the dream"? Is there anybody else to listen and appreciate you - in Me, the Real, when Truth is single, one alone, beyond and above all?
This transcendental true waking state of Mine is eternal, and it is certainly far out beyond expression. Thereby, your words and actions have nothing to do with Me - the one who is above all and in which there is no creation from the very beginning. So how can your words and actions ever exist in Me, then? Your statement may prove to be an interesting 'state-room' for the innocent, egoistic world of ignorance; your white lie may serve as a 'stetson' for those who are ignorant like you - but all your functions have never reached Me as yet, nor will they ever do so in future. He who will realize practically this true saying of Mine, is Me.
Your words and actions are within limits. They are within time; they are inside creation - that is why they are changeable and impermanent. There is no mortality, untruth or change in Me. I am beyond all, so I am immortal, changeless Truth. As long as you are within the periphery of hallucination, you are nothing but a creature of this creation. You are entrapped by the pose of your own actions. Your own impositions intrinsically imprison you in the body - inside this world-jail. That is why you don't know who you are in reality, and yet you say, "I am so-and-so'. This impulse, which is not yours, you took to be yours, and this single mistake keeps you aside from Reality. Now you are a prisoner within the four walls of this body, of this society and the world of mystery. Your own daydream is the real cause of your imprisonment. None else is there to be blamed except your own ignorance - this ego concept. To get out of this prison cell, to remain ever-free from this jail of concepts - only one means is there - 'BE EMPTY'.
When you are free from ego concepts all the time, then only you will realize the Truth. This incredible supremacy of the Supreme Self, which is full of mystery, will be revealed very quickly with this simple technique - 'BE EMPTY'.
It will be hard for you, at the beginning, to believe - just like someone who is not ready to accept the man in front of him as his father, whom he lost when still young and has never seen since, but who nevertheless in the end agrees that this unknown man is indeed his father. When his delusion disappears, when his ignorance vanishes - that very moment he recognizes his lost father whom he had been searching for from the very beginning. Similarly, when the aspirant is completely free from ego concepts, when he is fully empty, then only he will realize this eternal Truth, and at the same time he will know that I alone am that Real Self where the delusive creation of this changeable ego is coming, staying and going.
Now everything has disappeared for ever, yet I, the Real Self, am surviving without any change, as I am. This is known as Self-realization - this is GOD.
"THERE IS NO GOD, CERTAINLY HE IS NOT,
HE IS NOT EXISTING
IF EGO DECLARES THIS WAY,
AGAIN & AGAIN
IT IS HELPING YOU
AS LONG AS YOU ARE EXISTING
YOUR UNIVERSE IS THERE
IN YOUR EGOISTIC EYES,
THE PRODUCT OF IGNORANCE
THE ALL-PERVADING ONE.
BEYOND YOUR CATCH
BEYOND YOUR REACH
YOUR PHYSICAL BODY
YOUR SENSE ORGANS
MIND AND INTELLECT.
IT IS CLEAR
IS NOT WITHIN THE RANGE OF
SIGHT, SOUND & ALL.
INSIDE YOU ALL
SO YOU CAN'T SEE
YOU CAN'T GET
WHO IS EGOLESS
NOT YOUR SLAVE
YOUR EGO'S SLAVE
NOR THE SLAVE & OUTPUT
OF YOUR IGNORANCE
EGO WHICH HAS NO EXISTENCE
IS THE PRODUCT OF IGNORANCE
BASELESS EGO IS
HOW CAN OR WILL IT BE POSSIBLE THEN
FOR THIS ILLUSION
TO REVEAL 'THE TRUTH'?
THIS ETERNAL TRUTH
UNTRUTH IS UNTRUTH
UNREAL IS NOT THE PRODUCT OF
THAT IS WHY IT IS HALLUCINATION
IT IS IGNORANCE, IT IS DARK, IT IS BLIND
SO IT IS BLANK
THAT IS WHY IT IS UNABLE TO SEE
IT IS UNABLE TO VISUALISE
IT CAN'T FEEL OR REALIZE
THAT IS WHY THERE IS
EVER IN THE EYES OF
AND ITS IGNORANCE.
AS LONG AS EGO IS THERE, THERE WILL BE
NO GOD EITHER.
THE PRODUCT OF IGNORANCE
THERE IS NO GOD
IT IS NOT A STRANGE THING
IT IS NOT A NEW THING
IT IS SAYING TO YOU NOW AND THEN,
IT IS AN ANCIENT ONE
IT IS THE SAME OLD STORY
THE SAME TRUE STORY
THAT WHICH IS UTTERING
THAT WHICH IS REPEATING
AGAIN & AGAIN
ALONG WITH THE WIND
- THIS IS CERTAINLY MUTE
THIS IS DEFINITELY A MUTT -
THAT WHICH MUTTERS
THAT WHICH GRUMBLES
WILL REPEAT ITSELF IN THE SAME OLD WAY
FOR AS LONG AS IT SURVIVES
IN THE FUTURE
IT WILL HELP YOU THIS WAY
THIS IS THE TRUTHFULNESS OF EGO
THIS IS THE GENEROSITY OF THIS
THIS IS HOW EGO HELPS
IS IT NOT A GREAT HELP?
CERTAINLY IT IS.
IT HAS ANNOUNCED THAT AS LONG AS YOU
ARE JUST LIKE ME (THE EGO)
YOU WILL NOT REALIZE TRUTH
THE UNBORN GOD
LOOK! I AM BORN & AM THE PRODUCT
RISE ABOVE ME & ONLY THEN WILL YOU
REALISE THE TRUTH,